After countless tweaks and rewrites, I spontaneously decided on Saturday to just call it finished and put it out. In doing so, I finally became a published fiction writer. Yes, my 170-ish page novella, “The Renegade Spy” is finally out.
It’s been a long and tiring journey to get to this stage. From conception to publication has taken a lot out of me, even though the novella is so short. Anyone who says writing a book is easy is lying through their teeth. I am now writing a full-length novel as the sequel (which will be between 80,000 and 90,000 words), and that one is really taking it out on me. The Reichsbank Gold is due out on October 31st.
But I am enjoying the process, which makes it all worthwhile. Seeing this really got my adrenalin going on Saturday evening.
Just seeing that publishing status on Draft2Digital validated everything I have been doing up to now. The late nights, the endless edits, the doubts.
Yes, the doubts. If you have never published before, it is easy to tell yourself that your work isn’t good enough. That people are going to laugh and scorn. That you should stop because you have no business being a writer. But I am fortunate enough to have a lot of extremely supportive friends, a lot of whom are writers themselves (or are about to be). They kept me going through all of that self-doubt and self-loathing.
I just need to get the next one out now. Once the next one is out, it’s a doddle from that point on. Apparently.
“The Renegade Spy” is out for free on all major eBook platforms. It is still in “pending” on Barnes & Noble but that should hopefully be fixed by the end of today. There is also a price on it on Amazon, but that should also be gone by the end of today. It’s a complicated process getting a book to be free on Amazon.